Life, before and after

"My life feels like a roller-coaster ride lately. Too many ups and downs in such a short span. Sometimes I wonder where I'd summoned the energy and emotions to handle it all. I won't say everything is suck and terrible because it is not. I admit, I hit several low points in my life lately where I felt like whatever I do will never be good enough for others. I care too much perhaps."

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The first paragraph was written earlier this month. Much to my surprise, I couldn't connect with what I've wrote up there. I don't feel the same way anymore. That's because my life is getting better now, I've learnt to accept what I can't change. I'm happy with what I have. I have awesome friends whom make me feel like I'm perfect and family whom love me unconditionally. I don't need to prove to anyone anything. 

Life is not that bad if you can learn to look at things optimistically. The cup is never half empty, it is half full. Positive thinking is the key maybe. I've stopped dwelling on the negative parts of my life. Shits happen, that's life. So, what I did now is looking past the things that once made me feel my worst and enjoy whatever I can right now. I live in the moment instead of over analyzing about my past and worrying too much about my future.

I do whatever I want. Quit my job, joined new company, got high and stoned, packed my luggage and went away with the boys, booked my ticket with Miao to go see Sara in Bangkok in December, almost getting a tattoo, bought the dress that made me feel good without second thought (tho I did this everytime), eat all I want, dance my heart out and so much more. And for once, I feel content. Life is good if you know how to enjoy it. Who cares about the people whom once hurt you. You know what they say, whatever doesn't kill you will make you stronger. Cheers for more great things in life!