2015 in rewind

I wrote my 2015 in rewind in my Dayre, so I figure I should paste it here too to immortalize it on my own blog. Writing this post is really fun to me because I can look back at what my life is all about through photos taken in my phone. I've edited and adding more photos here because I forgot to add in my Dayre.

January

January is my birthday month. As I grew up, my birthday celebration is getting simple. I used to have birthday week when I was a student where I celebrated my birthday throughout the week and I think I ate around 3 or 4 cakes.

Welcoming 2015 with dinner with my girlfriends. We also had another dinner for hoe and I my birthday.

Looking back at my camera roll for January and I realized the majority of the photos are food wtf. So that concludes that I ate out a lot in January.

February

February is another month filled with birthday. It is my brother and little sister's birthday month. Also one of the few times that all of us are available for family dinner. My brother and little sister now are away for uni.

3rd Chinese New Year together with the bf. And in less than 45 days, we will have our 4th Chinese New Year together.

Valentine's Day doesn't mean much to us because we do not celebrate V day. No specific reason but the bf is not the romantic kind so I'm slowly getting used to it. Past 2 years we been fighting a lot about this but now I'm just like nah, I don't care either.

March

Scrolling my camera roll I saw that I started to be active in kitchen. My interest in cooking somehow sky rocketed this month that I decided to cook birthday dinner for my mom.

This is the month that I've spent hours online researching recipes and watching cooking show. Don't know why so suddenly got the domestic spirit in me but I'm happy that it happened because now I can prepare a proper meal. Mind you, I once burnt a pot when cooking and I have melted chopstick too when cooking maggie mee at the bf's house. Lucky nobody saw that and I quickly threw the chopstick away. 

I also went to Cambodia and visited Phnom Penh and Siam Reap. Visiting Angkor Wat is definitely the highlight of my trip. Although it was tiring (try walking under 35 degree hot sun for the whole day) Angkor Wat really wowed me. The history of Khmer Rouge and genocide in Cambodia open my eyes about the world. These are the stuff that you never learn at school. This is why I love travelling. Hopefully I can explore more places in year to come.

I'm also stepping out of my comfort zone by going on this Cambodia trip because I went with a bunch of strangers. Actually it's my best friend uni mates. I decided to join her with her friends for the holiday despite never meeting them. They say the people that you travel with can either make or break your trip.

And they definitely made my trip. Hehe

April

April is the month where I really learn to be independent. Of course the highlight of this month is my solo trip to Bali.

Everyone was worried about me going to another country on my own but I feel nonchalant about it, I was very excited instead. I myself know that I had done enough research and been very very careful throughout the trip. Praise God because everything went well on my trip alone.

Of course there are some hiccups during the trip like I got followed by a very persistent motorbike driver (I got really annoyed and yelled at him to leave me alone and he did) and got scammed by leech like vendors at Kuta beach whom literally forced me to buy their stuff.

May

This month I started to try juicing and been doing it dilligently for the whole month.

I tried juice detox but failed because I couldn't stand the hunger la.

In this month, my bf got into road accident but thankfully he escaped with only scratch knee. Another accident happened to my cousin too. He's fine but our car is wrecked and still under repair in workshop till to date.

June

This is the month that I took lots of selfies, no kidding, when I scrolled through June camera roll, almost 70% are my selfies. With great hair too.

I tried went back to cardio and yoga class because I wanted to be toned and healthy again but sadly the determination didn't last long.

Had a colorful nightlife this month because my bestie was back to town.

July 

Nothing special happened in July. Work and life went on as usual.

Oh yeah, my nightlife still pretty busy. Birthdays and dinners with new friends whom I still keep in touch with now.

Also went on lots of dates with the bf to check out new cafes in town.

I also started to properly learn baking. My first attempt still not quite there yet but I have improved a lot now if I may say so myself. 

August

Went on team building programme and did Leap of Faith which is the highlight of the programme for me. I'm not a fan of height, my knees got weak but I went ahead anyway. Quite proud of myself hahaha

I was on a roll with eating clean this month. I'm determined to kick start eating clean again now.

This is also a hard time for me. I got into big fight with my father. It was a very serious matter and I was very upset at him for jeopardizing our family future. I remembered we spent the rest of the month not talking to each other. I was really angry at my parents and quite depressed this month. I was forced to let go of my car too.

I went cafe hopping again with sisters a lot this month because my little sister went to uni in September, so we want to spend as much time as possible.

September

My sister got married in September. Feels so nice to reunite with my cousins which I just spent Christmas with.

My baking passion is growing strong too this month. I channelled my negative energy into baking and slowly getting better.

October

I found another new hobby this month which is gardening. I wrote about my gardening adventure in Dayre under #dayrebotany.

I wrote about my gardening experience here.

I continued to bake a lot. Looking back at the photo makes me want to bake again. Maybe tomorrow I'll bake lemon cupcakes.

November

I cut my hair short this month. I can see that I was slowly getting better emotional wise. I started to talk to my parents again.

I bought my new car which is the best decision I'd made. I no longer have to ask for ride whenever I went out. Actually one of the reason I baked a lot last few months is because I been cooped up at home. Now that I have my car, I bake less and less now.

December 

Kick start my December with a week long vacation in Hongkong where I experienced my first winter.

Fulfilling my dream to go to Disneyland.

Drove long distance for the first time too. Wah looking back at my year I feel like I have lot of achievements this year. Quite proud of myself.

My sister and I drove all the way to Miri to spend Christmas with my cousin.

I'm not one of the mushy kind but I want to pen down my feeling for 2015. I feel like this is the year that I have grown the most. I have fallen into the dark times but somehow I managed to stand up again. When picking myself up throughout the year, I've learnt that people change and it is nobody fault. Every choice that you make, you have to pay for the consequences.

So now I know what is important to me, what makes me happy and what I want my life to be. I'll be striving to be the best version of myself. Cheers to 2016, I'm ready for you.

Drafts

I was going through my draft posts that failed to make an appearance in this world wide web since 2009. Younger me really impress myself, every emotions and my writing are completely raw. I really just wrote whatever I want back then. Some bring back so much memories especially when I was still a student and my only worries are to finish my assignments and get my crush to notice me wtf.

Let me post it here and walk down the memory lane. Some things I still remember and some I have no idea what or whom I was talking about. Nevertheless the 25 years old me having fun reading the 20 years old me's thought.

**Grey font and Italic is my draft posts

1. 3 Things that I absolutely positve about Robert Pattison (Written on August 15 2009)

1. Robert is born to be Edward Cullen.

2. Robert is (Yup, even back then I couldn't finish my own list)

OMG!! This was written when I was super in love with Twilight. I watched and read the whole saga. Even trying hard to force my partner (mind you, not boyfriend ok! Just a very very close friend) to like Twilight. I think I really push Twilight so hard to him and that's all I ever talked about, I'm surprised he never ask me to shut the hell up lol.



2. Alive than ever (Written on September 20 2009)
I just found out that someone post my picture with my friends in his blog. It was rather insulting. I'm so pissed off. 

Okay, this one really boiled me up. A guy, a Perez Hilton wannabe create a blog (I won't name the blog or even link them because I don't want to give hit to him) to gossip about students in my uni. He stole the photo of my friends and I from our Facebook. Yup, he was in our friend list and has accessed to our photo because we went to the same faculty and attended some classes together. Not together as in close friend, okay! Just had the same class.

So childish ='=

This guy was hunger for fame obviously. He thought he was in Gossip Girls.

Of course I have comment back but he ignored me. Pffftt but he got awkward when we bumped into him around uni.

3. Happily Living in Our Artificial World (Written on November 12 2009)

I still remember the first day he approached me in my Facebook world. He said I have nice smile and should smile always. Back then, I never paid any much attention to him. The compliment did flattered me but never in my dream I would thought that we will be this 'close' someday. Truth is, I had been eying him up for the past year, just for fun though. Eyeing boys up is always been my favorite past time. He was just one of few that caught my attention.

Hahahahha this one is so funny and mushy. Actually now that I saw this, I finally remember how I got close with my partner. But I'm glad he did approached me and now I can turn to him to talk about anything. He's sorta my secret life adviser. 

4. Catch me if I fall (Written on April 28 2010)

From a stranger to an acquaintance to friend to best friend and now to special friend.

We had come a long way, isn't it?

Oopsss! I guess this was when I fell in love with him. Lololol so guys, this is what happened when you keep flirting with your own friend. In case some of you are wondering, no, we didn't end up together.

5. Quickie Update (Written on May 27 2010)

I loath meeting when I have no idea what are they talking about. What figure? What budget? Today is my second meeting which is the extension of our first meeting. I had pleasant experience during the last meeting because I enjoy listening to them discussing the current issues and projects. It helps to expose me to the real working scope. But today they are talking about figure and budgets, which I find absolutely boring. The only things that keep me going through the meeting is my broadband sim card and the meal afterward. Yesterday I have my first site visit. It was fantastic. I'll share the experience later. If you notice, I'm typing this without paragraph. Well, that because I'm updating this from my phone. Didn't bring laptop today because the meeting is scheduled for whole day. Thus, I'm making full use of the available facilities. Dear time, please fast forward to evening so that I can pack and tune into Gawai mode.

Such a life of an internship student. Hahahaha I'm really having fun reading back my old draft. Oh well, one thing remains the same, I still loath meeting. Another downside is now I have nothing to look forward after meeting. No meal and have to stay back after work some more.

6. If only (Written on August 5 2010)

- If only I have the courage, I'll ask you all the things I'd been wanting to know.

- If only we didn't hold back all these times, we might be at a better place now.

- If only we being honest to each other, we won't be walking in a maze, messing with our own thoughts.

- If only you didn't hesitate, we might have a picture of us in our prom attire night last year.

- If only


Oh uh.... Here comes the emo part of my student life. I guess all those flirting non stop but never take the plunge to step forward in my special relationship was detrimental to my own emotion. But really la, I was kinda pissed off with him for leading me on but not making things official. Frankly though, I'm glad we really didn't end up together because those decisions might lead to different consequence to my life right now. I'm probably not where I am right now. I wouldn't change anything that I did in the past because it lead me to where I am now. Except maybe I will take a gap year after graduate.



7. Reconciliation (Written on March 30 2011)
I don't hold grudges.

Ok, I have no idea what was I talking about here. I was still a student in 2011 and I don't remember having any fights with anyone and I'm sure this has nothing to do with my crush too. Well, I guess this will remain a mystery.

I don't know I'll be having so much fun reading stuff that I've wrote years ago. Having blog and keep draft like this is good to keep those memories alive. I'm glad I've started this blog 5 years ago in a small dorm room in my uni using only Celcom broadband.

Slowly I see myself transitioning from a student to an young adult and now a mid 20's. 5 years later I'll be writing about marriage and kids perhaps wtf.