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Most people that I've met in working life always commented on how young am I to be working at this age. Be it attending seminar, briefing, training or meeting, I'm always the youngest among all and the least experience one. Knowing that I'm coming from a totally different background ( I'm a science graduate), the most popular question I've got is why I choose to work in this field? Why not do something that related to my degree? Next question will be, why not go for government sector? Why didn't you be a teacher? Too many "why this?" why that?" -______________-

Truth is, I never actually plan what I want to do after finishing Uni. All I know is I'm eager to start earning my own money, I mean, who doesn't right? Right after I moved back to my hometown, I'm still have no idea what will come next for me. But one thing is for sure, my dad was slowly stopping my allowance T_T. 

And whoever know me in person should know that I have serious spending habit. I splurged a lot on clothes/shoes/bags/makeup/skin care  girl necessity stuffs, so I know that I need to do something if I want to continue this habit of mine (which I have no intention to stop, pffft).

Maybe I'm money-driven instead of passion-driven in choosing my career. As long as the money keep coming in, I'll be happy. So when those questions were shoot at me, I don't really have answers except for one of the question : " Why didn't you be a teacher?" Well, that's because I don't want to. I don't know why people always assuming that I will be a good teacher and SHOULD be a teacher.

Not that teacher is not a good career or what, it's just that I'm not interested to be one. Maybe I'm not noble enough or maybe I'm too shallow for my own good, but these are the reasons why I don't want to be a teacher:

1. I've spent 12 years of my life from kindergarten until high school attending school. Now that I'm working, I still have to go to school again till I'm 60 years old?? No, thanks.

2. Teachers can't wear nice clothes. I know this is shallow but I love dressing up going to work. I love my dress and skirts. I bet most of my office wears are not suitable for teaching, it's either the skirt is too short or too tight or the top is too sheer. Stupid reason, I know ='=

3. Most people would say teacher is the easiest job, you teach half day and when the school on holiday, you are too. But have you really think that's the only thing that teacher do? Teachers teach half day until school finish in the afternoon, then they have to mark papers/homework, prepare lesson for the next day, planning exam questions, doing extra curriculum activities for students, going for meeting, getting blamed when the students are not improving, getting bullied by the students. That sounds a lot to me. I'm not ready to be blamed for someone future.

4. As a teacher, people will look up to you and set a mentality that you are an angel that never get drunk and fell on the dance floor and absolutely clean from everything. I can't and I'm not. Enough said.

5. I don't want to wake up at 6 freaking a.m. in the morning just to get to school at 7 a.m. I've done that for 10 years and that's enough.

When you're done reading my reasons up there, you probable shake your head and thought to yourself  "what a shallow and selfish girl she is".  Don't be so judgmental, people. This is my personal reasons and since it's my career too, I have the right to be as shallow and selfish as I want. If you still think that being a teacher is really really a good career, why didn't YOU be a teacher? Why keep forcing others? This one is directed to those who keep forcing me.

The reason I came up with this post is because I'm kinda tired of people throwing this question to me. Most of the time, I just smile and tell them I'm not interested. But next time, if someone ask me this question again, I probably will throw a tantrum at him/her.

No offence to my friends that are going to be teacher out there. Everyone has different cup of tea, we have different interest and passion, I'm sure you guys will be a good teacher to lead the young generation. Especially if you're doing it because you love it. I really admire the people who do something because they are passionate about it.Your job should be something that you love, be it the pay or the perks, not something that everyone think you should do.

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I know my reasons may sound pathetic to some people *cough* Batman *cough* but these are my personal reasons. But I think the real reason is I have no passion nor interest in teaching. I get frustrated and give up easily when I myself can't understand something, so how am I going to be a good teacher? What I listed up there are probably just excuses for myself.  I believe everyone has the right to choose what they want to be. It takes a lot to be a good teacher and only the most patience and noble person can pull it off, I respect my teachers because they helped in shaping me for who I am today. Just because I doesn't want to be one doesn't means that I hate nor looking down at those who chose to be one. There's a huge difference, can you tell?

Shall end this post with my new fringe.

Blurry

Last week I went to buy my contact lenses and only to realize I bought the wrong power, FML. My power was 450 & 475 but I bought 425. At first I thought never mind, it was just a small difference. I used 425 before when the power of both side of eyes were 450. But heck, how wrong was I? My vision was blur and I couldn't see the words on banner along the road side unless if I squint my eyes which giving my headache.

So tonight I returned my contact lenses and had my optician checked my eyesight. I suspected that my eyesight had gotten worst and even when I put on my spectacles, I still got blurry vision. Guess what my optician found out? I got wrinkled inside my eyes because obviously I over-abuse my eyes by staring into computer screen for more than 8 hours a day and using contact lenses for almost 12 hours. Thank God he said it wasn't anything serious. 

Must take good care of my eyes if not I will need to put on Harry Potter glass like this

(Please ignore my double chin, thanks)

Life is not fair. I got friends whom growing up playing Dota whole day and yet they have perfect vision. I screwed up a few times by reading under dim light when young and end up with glasses. But I'm thankful that that nothing is serious, it was just short-sighted. Maybe I should start snacking carrots instead of chocolates now. By the way, this year marks the 10th years I had been using contact lenses. 10 freaking years?? Wow, time flies. 

And yeah, my shortsighted increase a little bit. :(

This Means War

I went to catch this movie last week after most of my friends recommending it. And I love it. It was hilarious and totally relatable (in my case). Well, a recently getting married ex-boyfriend, checked! Accidentally caught in between two best friends , umm checked! But fret not, no guns or gangsters are involved and we keep thing platonic. 

Overall, the plot was good but still a bit predictable. It's the jokes that crack me up, I haven't laugh that much or went awww, that's so sweet for quite some times. I think the last movie that made me went all mushy is either Valentine's Day or When In Rome. So, yeah I'm a sucker for comedy romance.

One of things that got my attention when a movie portrayed a career woman is their wardrobe. I absolutely love all of her office wears. I mean, how could you not? She was dressed in Marc Jacobs, Dolce & Gabbana, Burberry, The Row, Parker and so much more. If only I could raid her wardrobe, Monday blues will no longer exist in my career life. Among my favorites are below:

Isn't those pieces a beauty? And her heels too. All thanks to the costume designer, Sophie De Rakoff, I love every single one even though I know I couldn't walk in them. Sigh, I feel like going shopping now but my bank account doesn't agree with me. 

Self-reflection

Early this year, I had set some challenges for myself to conquer in 2012 but I only post one up in my first post for 2012 and shamelessly admit that I failed the challenge. After that, a month had past and I completely forgot about these challenges. See, this is the reason why I didn't make any new year or whatsoever resolutions, I'll forget about it anyway. 

But when I was at work today, I made a little self-reflection about how much have I change lately. It all started when a once-was-friend-now-is-stranger (it's complicated) said something about what happened to the person aka me that once he knew. Pfft, I don't think I'd changed, even if I do, I hope it's for better. 

Truth is, I did change. Lately I had stopped doing things that I used to love. Maybe I was too busy, I just couldn't find time for all the activities or habits that I once loved. But it's not too late for me to pick up the old as well as some new habits. So, I think I can start small, doing the simplest thing first because you can't expect a baby to run when he takes his first step, right?

1. Reading

I can't remember what was the last book that I'd read. It had been too long. I used to be such a bookworm before especially when the Twilight fever hit me. I read all the Twilight series, including Midnight Sun (Edward POV) in less than 2 weeks. I miss the excitement of wanting to know more about the plot and let my imagination run free, directing my own version of book adopted movie. 

The abandoned books on my bedside table.

(Yes, it is my high school name tag at the back :p)

2. Cooking & baking

Okay, cooking is a new thing for me. I can't cook a proper dish, it's a fact. I tried before and let's just say I need more and more practice. I never really step into the kitchen unless if I want something from the fridge or during meal time or me cooking instant noodle. The only help that I could offer my mom in the kitchen is to wash the dishes. It's about time for me to put on the apron and pick up the knife or whatever and turn on the stove. I'll start with a simple dish, maybe a simple dinner for the family (hopefully). As for baking, it is a long abandoned hobby, I miss my cheese cakes. 

3. To listen and care more about family and friends

This is something that I always remind myself to do. No matter how busy or tired I am, I should always make time for them. Because these people are my pillar of strength. I'm trying and still is to be a better friend/sister/daughter for them. It doesn't take much to show that you care, sometimes a little gesture is enough to brighten up their day.

One step at a time. Finger cross I still remember all these after hitting the 'publish post' button. 

Bits of this & that

Some back-dated pictures from couple of weeks ago. For my farewell with my last company, we had pizza after working hour at the office ='= Since I was leaving earlier that my last working day ( I was entitled for 2 days leave and completely utilized it by going away with the boys), we couldn't plan a proper farewell dinner, so pizza it is then.

My fave girl, she would stopped by after office hour and waited for her mom (my colleague)

It had been a great 6 months journey with you guys :(

Now that I'm settling down with the new job, I found a new addiction. Taro bubble milk tea. For the first week, I had this bubble tea almost everyday. During lunch, after work, I would rush over to Easy Drink to get myself a fix of Taro milk tea.

I was crazing for one last Saturday, so I went to their outlet at Star Mega Mall but it was closed for cleaning and maintenance ='= Never mind I said to myself, they got one more outlet downtown. So, I drove all the way, only to find out that they were out of stock. WTF!! Apparently they are having shortage of stock right now and have to pause the production for awhile. Only by early March they will resume selling my Taro bubble milk tea, till then fml. 

Good thing I went back to work when the Uni still on break because that meant I could drag my friends to accompany me for lunch everyday. But the fun of lunching with them only last for a week since everyone went back to their Uni the week after. 

Xiao S even tapao-ed some home cooked meal for me because we were out of idea about places for lunch.

<3

Had sushi for lunch at Sushi Tie because one of the boy were craving for it (and my name rhymes with it)

I had been quite busy for the past weekends, so that limits my time to be with the family. Last Saturday, I brought lil sis out for lunch to make up for it. We had Bak Kut Teh and I got diarrhea after that ='= But it was a fun Saturday for me, running around getting errands done and bonding with lil sis.  

I was very tempted to buy the pants and luckily my conscience got the best of me.

Because I can get the pant somewhere else with only a fraction of its price. Shopping at Sibu is killing me because everything is so overpriced. I had seen many times the same outfits sold at two different city with two major different prices.

To end our long day, we both went for facial at Angelynne (Hui Juan). It took almost an hour and damn, blackhead removal was pain. If you think waxing "down under" is pain, times it 100, that's how painful it was for me. Maybe the girl that served me that day was heartless or she was in bad mood, but the way she poked my face with the needles (from the blackhead remover thingy) was no mercy. I felt like sharp knife were sliced through my nose. But I was satisfied with the after result. Clean and clogged-free face.

Before facial

No after facial picture because my face was red and blotchy.

That's all for now. 

Bye.

Inspirations & what's not

The fun of blogging for me is jotting down the memories in my daily life and looking back at it years later. My passion of blogging started at 2009, after a year of loyally following some of my favorite blogs. Back then, I only followed few blogs, everyday refreshing their pages waiting for updates. Reading their thoughts and life had inspired me in so many ways, making me believe that passion can bring you success no matter what educational background you’re from.

The first blog I’ve encountered back then was thatgirlcynthia. I read about it in CLEO and it got me hook. Back then Cynthia was still a student but already started to manage business by selling off her unused clothes and been doing some freelance jobs for extra income. The passion for fashion drives this ACCA student to start up an online retail business, An Old Flame . I once read that Cynthia was torn in between getting a secure job and chasing her dream. In the end, she chose what made her happy. Not only she’s managing her online retail and work behind the scenes, she’s also a freelance writer. Cynthia plays as hard as she works. She makes me believe that one should work hard and play harder. Who says whoever party all night long and get wasted will never be success? Bullshit. Her schedule may be busy but she knows how to chill out with a glass (or two) beer and good music. 

http://www.thatgirlcynthia.com

Gotta love her alter ego tattoo

Another blog that I'd been frequent a lot, if not everyday for the past years is Proud duck. Who doesn't know Vivy Yusof, the founder of Fashion Valet. I've read her blog since she was a law student till now, a success entrepreneur. Who say you have to be what're you're studying at uni? She's law graduate but find her way in construction business and build a platform for all the shopaholics out there to get to know more local designer through her online retail site, Fashion Valet. This girl proves that nothing is impossible if you set your heart to it, doesn't matter if you need to start it from scratch. And you don't have to give up what you love the most (read: shopping) to provide food on the table. She's success, she's low profile, she's the inspiration for youngster out there. And she's funny too. This beauty with brain writes too. Do check out her article in The Star occasionally. Sometimes, I wonder how did she manages everything. Such a wonder woman.

http://www.proudduck.com

Another blogger that I look up to is definitely Joyce, the ultimate fashionista, great traveler, amazing writer and the star of a party. She works harder than anyone else, juggling all sort of projects (you can read it here) and yet she still make sure she lives her life to the fullest. She's the girl whom never afraid to try anything new. I really admire here free spirit, I envy her travelling experience, Joyce had left her foot prints in far too many places. She's the girl that can work all day and party all night. And she cooks too. How's amazing is that? I'm not just talking about your everyday dish, her dishes were those of Nigella's recipes and she cooks for big group. She definitely living it up her best. Her spontaneity got me in so many ways. We only live once, might as well live your life to the fullest. What's the point of saying no now and regretting in years later when you already miss the chance. You know, some opportunity just knock once in a lifetime. But be smart in choosing what you're about to do, follow your heart but make sure your head agrees too (well, at least trying to agree).

http://www.kinkybluefairy.net/

Whenever I feel like I couldn't do it all at once (be it work or personal stuffs), I always remind myself that if these ladies can pull it off, so do I. There are times when I feel like the world is against me but I told myself to look at the bright side. Everything is ain't too bad if you know how to be optimistic. Don't be too hard on yourself, let loose and just enjoy. So when I'm down, I blast my music, make myself a cup of drinks and starts blog-hopping or rereading these amazing bloggers posts from their earlier days just to get myself inspire. Hope you are inspires too!

Go and do anything that you'd been putting off 

By the way, the pictures used in this post are all taken from their respective blogs.

Life, before and after

"My life feels like a roller-coaster ride lately. Too many ups and downs in such a short span. Sometimes I wonder where I'd summoned the energy and emotions to handle it all. I won't say everything is suck and terrible because it is not. I admit, I hit several low points in my life lately where I felt like whatever I do will never be good enough for others. I care too much perhaps."

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The first paragraph was written earlier this month. Much to my surprise, I couldn't connect with what I've wrote up there. I don't feel the same way anymore. That's because my life is getting better now, I've learnt to accept what I can't change. I'm happy with what I have. I have awesome friends whom make me feel like I'm perfect and family whom love me unconditionally. I don't need to prove to anyone anything. 

Life is not that bad if you can learn to look at things optimistically. The cup is never half empty, it is half full. Positive thinking is the key maybe. I've stopped dwelling on the negative parts of my life. Shits happen, that's life. So, what I did now is looking past the things that once made me feel my worst and enjoy whatever I can right now. I live in the moment instead of over analyzing about my past and worrying too much about my future.

I do whatever I want. Quit my job, joined new company, got high and stoned, packed my luggage and went away with the boys, booked my ticket with Miao to go see Sara in Bangkok in December, almost getting a tattoo, bought the dress that made me feel good without second thought (tho I did this everytime), eat all I want, dance my heart out and so much more. And for once, I feel content. Life is good if you know how to enjoy it. Who cares about the people whom once hurt you. You know what they say, whatever doesn't kill you will make you stronger. Cheers for more great things in life!