Off the chest

Not everyone has the best interest of you in their heart. Some are secretly smiling at your failure, proudly bragging about their performance. They made it to the par, so what? It's not like it is the best one. I learnt not to let those get in my way, I don't have to sink into their level. Like it or not, this is life. So, I just have to deal with it.

Pardon the rant above. I need to let it out of my chest, nothing personal though.

Today is the second day of Ramadhan and my Muslim friends had been fasting for 2 days. As usual, during Ramadhan month, food bazaar will be held nearby my flat. I went there for 2 consecutive days and I shopped like I was the one that fasting. The food choices are too many and I felt super hungry just by looking at those food. I won't be surprise if I gain weight this month. This is good though, some of my friends had been complaining that I'm too thin. If they take another look at me now, I'm sure they will take back their comments. My face is getting rounder now. Let's hope I will not overdo this gaining weight resolution.

On another note, I just got back my car. Last Friday a foreigner bumped into my car when he reversed his car. I was taken aback and my mind went blank for a moment. But thanks God, he's a good Samaritan. He got off his car and inspected mine. Then we drove around looking for workshop. He kept apologizing and willing to pay for all the expenses. So I got my car fixed and sprayed. Lucky me it was just a minor collision. Thank God nobody got hurt.

Next thing on my list, getting my final year project proposal done. I'd sent in my first draft and my supervisor wants me to edit a few things here and there. I still have two weeks time to prepare for my proposal presentation. Wish me luck ya.

His village and his mates

He took me to his village for a picnic with his mates last Saturday. It was awesome. We ate, we laughed, we enjoyed. I love his 'storybook scene'. Just as he promised. 

I'm homesick

It's been 3 months, no wonder I have the heavy feeling. I miss my family.

Don't mind me if you see me feeling down.

I can't help it and it's nobody fault.

They say

Source

Yeah, it's unfair. You led me on then left me wondering, you came when I almost giving up on you, you give me hope then you disappears. And worst, the circle keeps on repeating itself and I let it.

One year checkpoint

It becomes my routine to talk to you almost everyday. We shared everything, from our annoyance of the white head leader to our favorite shirts.The connection that we have, it's amazing. We don't have to see each other everyday to know that we will always be there for each other. This beautiful friendship started from a simple comment. Somehow along the way, I'm falling for you. 

At first, I tried to convince myself what I feel for you is just a temporary crush. The more I denied it, the stronger the feeling had become. I'm afraid that I'm too clingy now. Anything that happened to me, the first thought I have is to tell you about it. But most of the time, I lost my courage and kept those to myself instead. 

I will never forget how you always made me feel better when I'm falling into the bottom pit. The late night study date that we had, I have to thank you for that. No doubt my pointer is getting better. You always have a way to chase away my homesickness. Bottom line, you made me open up to you. It's annoy me actually, it made me feel fragile and vulnerable.

Hey mister, have you realized that it had been a year now? More than 365 days had passed and yet you still give me butterflies in the stomach, you still made me blushing red, you still melt me with your smile. But one question is my head stays still. We are not an item but we are definitely more than just friend. So, what are we actually?  

We met and this is what happened

The Coffee Bean, Sarawak Plaza.

                                

Cutting Edge, The Spring

                               

Kado's Cafe, Jalan Padungan and Starbuck KIA

                                

King Deluxe Room 701, Pullman Hotel

                           

     

Thank you for flying down to Kuching to spend the weekend with me Marie. You're the best. It's been four years since we last met and to be reunited for 3 short days was amazing. The girlie night, make-ups, gossips, foods and us. That's all we need for a great weekend. When I have my travel fund filled, I'll fly to KL to see you and then we can head to Penang as planned.

Love you darl, xoxo

Study Mode On

Proposal writing is no fun and formal journals are the most effective sleeping aid.